Today’s thoughts waiver to myself. I have a meet and greet
with a new doctor tomorrow. Meeting a new doctor makes me nervous. There are
several reasons that doctors make me nervous. First it’s because I’m not an ‘averagely’
built person. I’m short and a little wide, although I’ve been trying my hardest
to change the latter. On top of that I have large bones for a person of my
size, and they are dense, I also have more muscle then most women. Half of my
body weight is muscle and bones. Not all doctors can see this. Most look at my
BMI and say you need to lose weight, work harder. The next thing I’m nervous
about is the fact that I have PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome), this is an
unfortunate thing that makes my body to not work very well. My hormones are all
out of whack, which messes with everything, my insulin doesn’t do what it’s supposed
to which makes my body react as if I have diabetes. Also this causes my body to
have a hard time losing weight, which doesn’t help the wide issue I mentioned
earlier. The last thing I’m nervous
about is that a year ago I lost the best doctor that I have ever had. Not only
did she listen to me but she did everything she could to help me. I wouldn’t be
where I am today without her. The doctor that I got after her wasn’t even close
to as good, she looked at my BMI and called me obese. Although according to my
BMI that is exactly what I am, I don’t feel I look obese nor do I feel obese.
But she couldn’t see pass it. So tomorrow I meet this new doctor and I hope she’s
as open minded and willing to help me as my previous doctor. These are the thoughts
that cloud my head tonight.
The next day.......
So I had my doctor’s appointment this afternoon and let me
tell you I had no reason to worry. I think I might have hit the doctor’s
jackpot once again. She was so kind. She never once mentioned my weight, except
to congratulate me on the amount that has disappeared over the last year. I told her I hadn't lost much in the last few months and she said that I was a busy mom and not to fret. She said that I was a mom of 3 and that in itself was enough and she understood that its not easy when you have younger children. She
told me many times that I was young and things were good. She also told me not
to worry about something my previous doctor was worried about. She said that she didn’t want to waste government
money with unneeded appointments, so to only bring my kids in when they needed
to see her. She asked me if I saw a doctor for yearly checkups when I was
little. I said no. She replied, and you’re still alive! I laughed, so simple.
She said you’ll know when something is wrong and then I’ll be more than happy
to take care of whatever it is you need. The thing that she said that made me
the happiest is that you can’t treat a patient just by what’s on paper but you
have to consider the person themselves when giving a diagnosis. Since my
biggest concern was the fact that I don’t fit into a lot of what the medical
sees as normal this statement made me feel reassured that she was going to be a
good fit for me and my family.
This verse seems very fitting for today:
Worry weighs us down; a cheerful word picks us up! Proverbs 12:25
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